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Ho! I’ve been busy lately, working and all, but i’ll update real soon!

Welcome …

… to the world, Ryan Eng.

Pulau Ubin! 07June09

For our June monthly affair, we went to Pulau Ubin.

We met at 9am (!), then took the ferry to the island. The first thing to do is to rent a bicycle ($7)! Too long never cycle so started abit wobbly.

The whole morning we cycled around some parts of the island, like Chek Jawa and beaches. Halfway thru, my sports shoe’s sole came off! Too long never wear already! =[ So tahan until reach the town area then bought a cheap but ugly slipper to wear.

Throughout the trip we saw wild boar, rabbits, lotus, sunflower, spider, durians, crabs, prawns, puppies and the thing that made me very happy upon seeing it was COKE! It was so hot the whole day even though it rained abit.

We had lunch at one of the seafood shops then headed off to one last beach before going home. The beach was quite small but there were 6 puppies living there! They are so unbelievably cute that we spent quite some time just looking at them. Hahaha..

At the end of everything, we all went home with full bodyache and pain in the ass. Lol. But it was fun!

Here are the pictures! Download Here.

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I just started working! One week already! Finally found a job after so long. But it’s quite far, at Tiong Bahru. Have to travel one hour there.

Still need some time to get use to working cos i’m so tired when i get home everyday!

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Yesterday went to watch fireworks at yishun with mindy, sihui and jason. It’s the closing for arts festival. The fireworks is WOW! It’s pratically surrounding you and you have to turn in circles to see everything and so close too!

Will post the photos soon!

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For the first time in dont know how long, my sms did not exceed 400, so didnt make use of the unlimited sms.

Hmm.. i think i need more friends?

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My effing ex-boss still haven give me the rest of my March pay yet. Asshole. Keep delay and delay. Friday he asked me for my account number. I checked and he only transfered half. And i have to ask him how much he transfered then he tell me have to wait next week for the rest cos some of his cheques haven clear yet. Dont know what stupid cheques need so long to clear. And dont know how they be bosses with no money. $900 only have to drag for months. Asssssss.

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如果我变成回忆
Tank

累了 照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例 想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了
听着 呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越没力越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣 我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你 人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你 我不怪你
快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣 我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你 人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你
如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气 霸占你心里 每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记

My destiny.

Lol. Tried this test from sihui’s blog. Really quite true.

You are feeling really miserable at this time and you’d like to form a relationship with someone with whom you could really communicate. At the same time, whoever it may be, that special ’someone’ must not conflict with your own belief system or ideals. This makes for tough going - but it would seem that the situation is only transitory. It will soon pass.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don’t need anything to ‘Rock your boat’. You want to ‘love’ and to be loved’.

Enough is enough - but the problems never seem to stop. They never stop. You feel, and maybe you are right, that the problems seem to go on and on and you have indeed had more than your fair share of trials and tribulations. But to give you credit - you bounce back time and time again - you stick to your beliefs because deep down you have that inner knowledge, that ‘belief’ system that in the end, everything will turn out OK - and you are right -it will!

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of ‘total surrender’. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence ‘you need to be needed’ and at the same time ‘you need to need’.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

Botanic Garden.

Once a upon a time …

0505 has known each other for 4 years …

So we met up for a picnic at Botanic Garden!

It was so so hot that by the time we settled down by the Swan Lake we were sweating like mad.

But we hanged on and continued picnic-ing.

We had so much food that we cant finish although we have 9 people.

Among the 9, some we often met up while some we haven met for a long time.

Leong wei somehow wore girl’s shoe, had an animal forest somewhere on his body, and rickson put on some weight.

We went back to playing year one’s game, like Ah Bang Ling Bomb Rabbit Cow 2 Frogs Jump Into The Water blah blah blah …

Then finally we couldnt take it, so we packed up and went back home.

And i ended up with a sunburn.

– The End –

Photos download!

The photos from the 0505 picnic are finally available for download!

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

I’ll post the photos if i’m not lazy. Hahaha.

Be happy with what you have.

How boring can life be?

It’s not that i dont want to work, it’s just that i cant seem to find a job. I’ve sent countless resumes. Had a few interviews, but that’s it. -.-

I just wanna work, is it so difficult?

Dont tell me to slowly find, cos i need to work asap! I’m not fking rich. And it sucks to slack at home!

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We should be happy with what we have, not be unhappy with what we dont have.

So i should be very happy being single!

And everyone should be happy with what they have!

One thing for sure, i’m very happy with LULU! Hahaha..

But her age is catching up with her. I think she’s a little hard of hearing.

I’m very afraid…

Forgetful.

Horoscope for today:

Next time you’re frustrated because you can’t find something, try to remember that sometimes being forgetful can be a blessing! The same brain that makes you lose your keys or forget your ATM password is the same brain that erases hurtful episodes from your life. The pain you experienced in your life recently is fading slowly, and each day you feel it less than the previous day’s pain. So keep moving forward and leave the past behind.

So it’s good to be forgetful. =]

Personality.

This is quite interesting. Everyone from the ancients to modern psychologists find that people can be grouped into four basic types of personality. I’m a Phlegmatic, which do you belong to?

More here.

A. Sanguine

1. Influencing of others, SP - Artisan - The Sanguine is receptive by nature and outgoing. He is usually called a ’super-extrovert’. This temperament is usually thought of as a “natural salesman” but they also tend to enter professions that are outgoing such as acting.

He “leads into a room with his mouth” and is never at a loss for words. His outgoing nature makes him the envy of more timid temperament types. He is most comfortable around people and does not like being alone. He is often known as a “toucher”; reaching out and touching the arm or shoulder of the person he is talking with. This can make more introverted temperaments nervous and uncomfortable.

His energy can make him seem more confident than he actually is and his cheery disposition often cause others to excuse his weaknesses by saying, “That’s just how he is”. The sanguine is mostly a happy person whom others are glad to have around.

The weakness of the sanguine include a lack of discipline which can be expressed in many ways - including a generally “messy” lifestyle or overeating. The sanguine is the most emotional of the temperaments and can burst into tears or a rage without warning. These “bursts” are usually over as fast as they occur but this lack of emotional consistency can affect other areas of his life. He may be “morally flexible” and may take advantage of others via his good nature.

A sanguine’s tremendous personal talents can be made or broken by his lack of self-discipline.

B. Choleric

1. Decisive, NT - Rational - The choleric is the most forceful and active of the four types. He is strong-willed and independent and opinionated. The choleric thrives on activity. He is the most practical and makes sound, quick decisions. He is not afraid of obstacles and tends to drive right through or over problems. He is probably the strongest natural leader of the four types. He has the most problem with anger and does not display compassion easily. He is quick to recognize opportunities and quick to capitalize on them - though details irritate him and, unless he learns to delegate, he will often gloss over details. His strong will and determination may drive him to succeed where more gifted people give up.

The choleric is a developer and may be seen in construction supervision or coaching or law enforcement. Most entrepreneurs are choleric. Because of their impatience they often end up doing everything themselves. A choleric is extremely goal/task oriented in leading others. His biggest weakness as a leader is a tendency to run right over people if he feels they are in his way. He assumes that approval and encouragement will lead others to slack off and he probably finds criticism and faultfinding more useful for his purposes. Through his natural determination he may succeed where others may give up.

A choleric’s weaknesses include anger and hostility. A choleric is the most likely to have an active temper; he is a door slammer and horn blower and he can carry a grudge for a long time. This includes a cutting and sarcastic tongue and the choleric will rarely hesitate to tell someone off. The choleric is the least likely to show affection or any public show of emotion. His emotions are the lease developed of all the temperaments. Additionally a choleric can be inconsiderate, opinionated and crafty in getting their own way.

C. Melancholy

1. Conscientious, SJ - Guardian - The melancholy is an introverted temperament type. His natural style is analytical and perfectionist. He is the most moody of types ranging from highly “up” to gloomy and depressed. During his low periods he can be very antagonistic and does not make friends easily. He is the most dependable of the temperaments due to his perfectionist tendencies. His analytical ability allows him to accurately diagnose obstacles and problems, which often keep him from making changes - he prefers the status quo and may seem overly pessimistic.

He may choose a difficult life vocation involving personal sacrifice. Many melancholies become doctors or scientists or artists. Their interpersonal style can be critical and negative. He tends to be more indecisive than other types. They have difficulty giving praise and approval because they cannot bring themselves to say something that is not 100% true. They also are usually dissatisfied with themselves being highly self-critical.

Other weaknesses include being “thin skinned” or touchy and easily offended. He often feels persecuted and may seek revenge for real or imagined insults. He tends to be “all or nothing” in his evaluation of things; everything must be black or white and no shades of gray. He is least likely to consider mitigating circumstances when evaluating a person or situation. No temperament is more likely to be legalistic and rigid. He can be intolerant and impatient with those who do not see things his way.

D. Phlegmatic

1. Steady, NF - Idealist - the phlegmatic is best characterized by the words “easy going”. He is the calm and steady person who is not easily disturbed. He is the easiest temperament type to get along with. Life for him is happy, unexcited and calm. Underneath the calm exterior, the phlegmatic is the most timid temperament type. He often uses humor to make his points. The phlegmatic is more an observer and does not involve himself in the activities of others.

Phlegmatics make excellent teachers, counselors and administrators. They are very dependable and organized and, while they never volunteer, they make good group leaders.

The weakness of a phlegmatic include lack of motivation or even laziness; they appear to lack drive and ambition. A phlegmatic needs to realize that he is not internally motivated and take up activities that force him into action. The phlegmatic is self-protective and may be selfish. He is often very stubborn, though it is hidden beneath his mild-mannered style. He is also the most fearful of temperaments.

192.

I seldom buy clothes when i’m out. It all depends on my mood and most of the time i’m not in the mood to spend money on clothes (i spend my money on food!).

So when i’m in the mood, i will buy quite alot of clothes, usually from the same shop.

This explains why i spent $192 on 3 tops and 3 dresses from Future State. They were on 50% sales. So why not?