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I’m just a good friend.

Like any other good friends you have.

You will care and worry for me like how you will for them.

And I can wake you in the morning like how you will for them.

So don’t let me influence you.

I’m not that great.

And not the one you want.

Coming February this blog will be 6 years old. Throughout this 6 years it has seen my ups and downs, love and heartbreaks, and I think half of this 6 years contains depressing post. I have thought of closing down this blog, but it seems like this is the only place I can express all my emoness without anyone asking, unlike twitter where it’s so easy to reply to tweets.

This is where I can put as many sad faces as I want and nobody will care.

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Just like this blog is 6 years old, I have known you for almost 6 years too. But half the time the lines are blurred and when it’s clear, I’m like standing on the line, unable to fall on either sides. I know you don’t want to commit anything, you want to find your directions and carve out your career. We can be like what we are now, until one day you get tired or someone else catches your eyes. When that day comes I will know, and I will try to understand why I was being so silly. Understanding is never easy though, like how I’m trying to understand you were too busy at work, how you always don’t like to say why you are feeling off, and how alot of things..

Sometimes I feel insecure about myself, that’s when I really can’t understand and my moodiness surfaces. But sometimes hearing your voice is enough.

I wish I could be more of a help, give you more advice when you have doubts about yourself, but I’m bad at giving advices.

At times when you’re feeling down and you don’t say, I just want to give you a hug and tell you everything will be fine and not to worry too much..

And to my bestie, you’re the only one who keeps me sane.

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Sooooo, I am now onto my fifth job in almost 3 years. I really hope this company will be a good one where I can happily work for at least a few years. I guess I’ll be in this line for quite some time.

14th February is approaching, which to me means “Single Awareness Day”, and it have always been for all my life. I recently saw this beautiful bouquet of roses and I changed my favourite flower colour from red to pink. If I ever have a boyfriend next time and he asks what flower I like, show him this picture. (I grabbed this photo from Nira’s blog cos it’s really very nice.)

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One song to end this post, damn emo one, from one of my favourite albums. Favourite album it means that I like all the songs in it, maybe except for 1 or 2, and I only have a few favourite albums.

你说我真好，比谁都好
有适合的人要帮我介绍
如果我真的那么好
你为什么不要？

茉莉花
梁靜茹

好一朵美丽的茉莉花
好一朵美丽的茉莉花
芬芳美丽满枝桠
又香又白人人夸
不让谁把心摘下
就等那个人爱呀
茉莉花呀茉莉花
谁当我情人
茉莉花
你说我真好
什么都好
谁当我情人做梦都会笑
我望着窗外的街角
看到辛酸走来幸福走掉
你说我真好
比谁都好
有适合的人要帮我介绍
如果我真的那么好
你为什么不要
为什么不要
呜呼……
好一朵美丽的茉莉花
好一朵美丽的茉莉花
芬芳美丽满枝桠
又香又白人人夸
茉莉花呀茉莉花

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I always have the mood to write long emo posts in the middle of the night. I think it’s time for me to sleep before it gets too bad.