Persistent, not.
I really hope things that are posted here won’t be so depressing, but it seems inevitable. The longer I can’t find work, the more depressed I get. And when I’m not working, it means I have more time to think about the things I know, like what you can do for her, who you go out with, although I don’t have a say in anything you do. And how you could send long texts but only send extremely short ones to me. Or how you try to hide when you get a text, and how much you used to text me when you’re being ignored by her, making me feel like a substitute. What I’m feeling is also what you felt, just that you didn’t notice. It’s like “A” giving “B” this treatment and “B” unknowingly giving “C” the same treatment. My heart died a little each time I know something, so sometimes I really hate myself for being so observant. That’s why I’ve been kinda ignoring you the past few weeks. But I was never known to be someone persistent, so in the end I always succumb to what my heart says. The songs that radio are playing is not helping too. It seems like all the songwriters are depressed. Or they know there are lots of lonely souls out there who needs these songs to keep them depressed. Sometimes I talk gibberish, gets angry at you for no reason(when I was just angry at myself), it is actually me trying to tell you something which I’m afraid once said, you will say I’m crazy or brush it off as another gibberish talk or start to talk to me less or ignore me or some other things. And this whole paragraph is just a decoy to let me tell you something, which is how much I miss you.